Sunday, 21 December 2014

Not A Good Start To The Day

7am DB announced he was feeling sick, he then promptly collapsed on the bathroom floor, unresponsive to anything I phoned for help, he was making a devil of a racket. The call handler kept telling me to roll him on his back, he was wedged between the toilet and the bath........impossible!!

To cut a long story short we had a first responder and 2 para medic here for over an hour, by which time he had come round enough to be put back in bed, where he still is. His BP was fine, so was his heart trace, no point in wheeling him off to LRI. 

I do not want to sound unfeeling but I am sick to death of coping with him, but cannot see a way round it. The specialists have said there is no medical reason for this happening.. I feel that I am slowly sinking into a black hole which I will not be able to climb out of.

At 11.30 am I have just got up enough strength to get up and dressed, thats about all I will be doing today apart from cooking some supper.

12 comments:

  1. I can feel your pain, and understand where you are coming from. It is a lot to cope with. Hugs to you and hoping it doesn't get any worse right now....

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  2. Dont know if my comment made it thru. Our hugs are with you. Mom went thru this with Dad who was however diagnosed with Parkingsons for over 15 years. Take good care of yourself. Ana and Bob

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  3. I can appreciate how you feel, it must be worse when they say that there isn't any medical reason for it. Be kind to yourself and take care,,,,

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  4. Hugs to you Anne. It,s so hard when you have no-one to help out and have to do it all on your own. Please look after yourself as best as you can. Will be thinking of you

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  5. So sorry to hear about DB. Is another doctor visit in order? Things of this nature can be difficult to understand and cope with. I wish you both the best. Let us know how things go....

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  6. Sending hugs and positive vibes. Wannabe Sybil x

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  7. Oh dear! I do feel for you. You are a marvel coping the way you do. I am sure all your readers are sending you vertual hugs, I am. Take care of yourself though, it is tough having to care for another when you don't feel so tickety-boo yourself. Sending you love X

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  9. Dear Anne

    Sorry you are in the wars again and hope Edwin is more comfy; its bad enough a collapse when you are younger and knocks your reserves for six but it takes quite some time when a little more fragile. Please therefore be kind to yourself its never easy and you can only do the best you can. Give yourself permission to breathe and to make decisions not to do this or not to do that when there is something that really does need time and rest to get back on track. We are very nearly always our own worst enemies and we are out own worst critics if we have not done this or accomplished that. Give yourself permission to take things at your pace so that you do not feel you are pedalling uphill all the time.

    Its all very well doctors saying it should not happen but it is - maybe they are missing something. There is obviously a reason why Edwin's system is reacting the way it is. Doctors will insist on treating us all alike when in reality each one of us is unique and we react differently to situations and medications. Please take care and take it steady. Love to you both.

    Pattypan

    x

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  10. I hope that you're both feeling a little better tomorrow - try to have a rest today if you can - hugs from me xxx

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  11. Nothing I can say will make it any easier, but I do understand where you are coming from, and the endless caring can be very wearing on you. Take whatever time you can grab to rest and take care of yourself. Thinking of you very much. Prayers and love xxx

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  12. Thinking of you and wishing the best for you.
    Love from Pam in TX.xx

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